Wednesday, July 23, 2014

You gonna rise or what?

Not sure on the rising, especially with that Nazi temptress / torturess from Der Todesking looming. The message is so clear; arouse your interest -then lob it off! ...You ladies want to know how "creeps" are created? Sexual deprivation, lack of female affection, breeds a kind of madness in men. Not saying ladies don't need sex too, far from it, but in my years of observation, they can go without and not suffer quite as much. ...Men get weird, we get obsessive, start sniffing chairs etc., and even the old bags at the supermarket start to look "not so bad" to us. It's uncontrollable. Men do not go through menopause, though our sex drive does diminish / calm down with age, we're pretty much raging until we die.

I was raised for the most part in my Grandparents' home, and I recall one night getting up to go to the bathroom, passing my Grandparents' bedroom, and hearing my Grandma say, "get off of me!" - just like that. I really felt for my Grandfather at that moment. He was a randy gent, always admiring the ladies, right up until his 80s, when he got sick, and as far as I know, was always loyal to my Grandmother.

I'm not suggesting that women roam the countryside handing out "charity fucks," that would be absurd, but when a man spends his lifetime with a fairly regular diet of sexual / romantic encounters, he begins to flounder and get weird, and yes, "creepy," as that frequency dwindles. So watch where you sit, as my face may be buried in your chair after you leave. It's a compliment!

...I often think, "why do I do this show, still?" as I head towards the station every week, but it always turns out well, I enjoy the creative release, and sharing the music I love with a receptive public, even if it is from 12-3 a.m., and the playlist comments are sometimes minimal / quiet. I've already amassed a substantial archive / legacy of unusual radio, over 200 shows which will stand the test of time, especially for those like myself that obsess over dark, aggressive, mysterious sounds. I will always be a slave to the less-obvious, the hidden, the less-socially acceptable arteries of creativity and art. I won't grow old and adopt mellower tastes, as some do.

Love on the playlist for Wargrinder, Voqkrre (album on iTunes!), Pig Destroyer (a 2001, "classic" track) ... then some sincere lamentation of the absence of Sue P.'s Solid Gold Hell program (both on my part and that of listeners), and then, a healthy bitch session on the plague of bedbugs. ... Sue P. was / is the real deal, a true maverick individual, with great taste in music, and for those that know her, a what-you-see-is-what-you-get, no-bullshit lady; I've always admired Sue a great deal, and her taste in what she conveyed on her weekly program was peerless. Sue continues to do fill-in shows on WFMU.

Though by and large, my weekly playlist is mapped out in advance, I still end up discovering the true greatness of many selections during the course of the show; this week, tracks especially by Excepter (awesome new LP!), Murw and Fatalism, really opened like flowers for me, and I reveled in the privilege to be able to share them with you. ...

Next week on our show, GREAT live sets from both Bleak (Syracuse, NY) and Hell Mary (NJ) grace the horrorcast™! Here's the Facebook event page.

Any and all further discussion, debate, discourse on the topic of male / female, sexual / romantic deprivation is welcome, on or off these pages. (You can email privately to

Click on our capture from Der Todesking up top, to reach the playlist, audio archive, and listener comments for this week's show, and thanks as always for tuning in.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

...the sound of people needing to do things they very much do not want to do....

Some things are just honest by nature - the blush of a woman, a kid's craving for ice cream, and a radio show rendered when the DJ is actually in a good mood. ...I play so much music that could be construed as "bad mood" music, and my tastes are in some ways an outgrowth of my personality, but we all NEED Abraxas - that balance of dark and light - and if I'm truly miserable (see last week), the show, despite my usual best effort, cherry-picked selections etc., will wilt, and the audience will react in kind with the vibes being transmitted. Yes, I believe in vibes.

And where do I look for this serenity, that which makes me not loathe the day, waking up, living? Sometimes, Buddhism. I've referred to myself before as a "Satanic Busshist," both for laughs but more often quite seriously. Do I pray? No, but I observe, I read, I observe some more. It's the only world religion that by definition that is strictly non-dogmatic; there are no "Buddhist fundamentalists" trying to take over the world, or spearing Muslim women and children on the ends of swords, like some Hindus do. Buddhism says, "feel good," "don't envy, don't struggle, don't yearn; these will all lead to unhappiness." No big THOU SHALT NOTs with Buddhism. Or at least, only good ones, great ones even.

Which leads me, somewhat ridiculously, to this week's film recommendation - a colorful, funny, violent, silly, and thoroughly entertaining film called Journey To The West. The giant hand of Buddha literally saves the day, not to give out a spoiler. Chinese horror in general has always been populated with Taoist priests who swoop in and defeat all evil and malice. Journey... features a band of demon hunters, colorful, campy characters with absurd powers, who cheerfully do battle and die with absurd bravery. It's loads of fun.


A movie I really hated, this week? I Used To Be Darker, one of those films that will leave you wondering why this film needed to be made, or its story told. Populated with miserable people, cold, capricious women especially. I don't appreciate the reinforcement of negative female stereotypes, especially as female filmmakers were involved. Why? Bah, what a piece of soul-hammering crap THAT was! Do not be fooled by the small-scale, indie drama charms of its trailer - the best scene was a party scene, that featured Dope Body playing a bitchin' song (free download at that link!), very much the postmodern Jesus Lizard they appear to be. ...Horror films are my refuge from the this type of cinema, anything "Sundance selects"...the banal portrayal of everyday human suffering, that which we get already just by living and engaging.

So, a windfall of praise on our playlist for a song from the latest Cattle Decapitation album. They deserve all the love they get; I saw a show in SF in 2009 that I'll never forget (remember Spike, we were there together, that was a fun night / Cephaic Carnage, too!); Travis was doing his usual spit acrobatics, and insulting goons in the pit, the latter so deftly that the targets didn't even realize...and their playing, and the whole thrust of that set was just perfect. If I ever leave the house to see live music again, it will be because of the memory of shows like that one.

I also quite liked our opening selection from Cara Neir, both Hells (France and USA), new tracks by Bleak, Excepter and Barrikad. Praise on the playlist, also, for a now-"classic" black metal track by Furdidurke, from the very memorable split 7" from 2006 with Bone Awl.

I'm off next week, gentleman Jeff Conklin, a friend, and guest on our show previously, will be filling in and I'm quite sure you'll enjoy his show.

Live music to come in the weeks ahead, from Bleak and Hell Mary (July 30) and NYC's Privilege on our August 6th show.

Click on this week's MCoQ screen capture, from the clever, witty, charmingly violent You're Next, to reach our playlist, streaming audio, and listener comments for this week's horrorcast. Thank you all for listening, and participating on the playlist, it really amps up the whole experience of doing radio for me, so it's much appreciated! See you in two weeks. ...

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

A summary.

Lightest playlist comments ever! No discourse to speak of last night, but my main discourse is with myself anyway, so, not only am I my own best audience, and as much as it's unhealthy to spend too much time in one's own head, at least I developed no new co-dependencies this week. You reap the benefits of my playing records outside the house for three hours every week. ...I'm learning well how to spend HUGE amounts of time alone. ...I guess my "to read" pile looms now, lots of great stuff in there! My brain will again be full of dynamite, astute observations, commentary and general mindfulness, that I can then in turn share with NO ONE. I consider myself a "true" black-metal head, then, I am LIVING THE LIFE. All I need is a shotgun and a more rural residence, and I'm all set. I really am THAT GUY, and maybe that's what makes the weekly horrocast ring true for its fans.

...Most of these characters with whom I share many traits, at the very least, the oddball mavericks, have at least one woman who understands them, "puts up" with them, shares their life and world vision, but this is not to be my lot. And as I approach 50, in a few weeks, I'm looking at a long stretch, so maybe it's time to return to my teenage love of painting, YET SOMETHING ELSE that will acquire moderate attention, respect from a cherished few, and minimal if any financial return, like all the other things I do. Painters do occasionally partner with beautiful, inspiring women, right (?), so that's a consideration, and boy-o-boy do I have "visions" to share. Similar to my dream of being a private detective, I can always keep that one in my back pocket, at least until a hole forms and it falls out.

So I don't count on anyone, not really, for company or emotional support, and it is what it is, like losing a loved one, or a limb, you just keep on living. I heard someone in a film refer to themselves as "not having the constitution for suicide," oh, it was Xander Berkeley as Cotton Mather in Salem ... and I pretty much agree, there's always that nagging feeling that you might miss something, kill yourself just hours before some big label offers to M&D Prison Tatt, or my soul mate sends a tentative email to my inbox. So yeah, HOPE - hard wired, perhaps unfortunately, into the human coding.

So, my little radio show, I mean if you heard it you liked it, this week - you're of that rare, minor percentage of "Castleheads"; you like the music I like, and pretty much that sums it up. I enjoy music, always have / always will, it enriches my life, and you rare followers of this show understand that, and presumably feel the same. Life is, for its greater part, a disappointing, wretched shithole, and music certainly makes it "better." ...

A positive remark for the new King ov Antichrists / War cassette on Vanguard Productions; for sure their tapeography is breaking some new ground in the genre, and more than worth checking out. ...

And so, at least for today, I surrender, beginning the "Howard Hughes part" of my life, with neither great, accumulated wealth, nor "handlers." NOW IF ALL THE ABOVE IS NOT A HUGE ADVERTISEMENT FOR ME AS A LIFE PARTNER, I DON'T KNOW WHAT WOULD BE! START LINING UP, LADIES!

Thanks as always, for listening / reading.

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Loon jazz.

...Ever notice how ESL speakers, particularly central Europeans, always misspell the word "lose" as "loose," as in the compilation title Electrick Loosers (one presumes an intentionally humorous gaffe)? I've always found it funny, because so often those that society deem "losers" ARE "loose" in one way or another. ...An old Upsala College friend, a guy from Trinidad whose name escapes me, used to call me, "Bill mon, wid da loose clothes'" - so I guess I'm a "looser," too. You see how I did that? Fun with language. English is the best 'cause it's by far the most fucked-up. ...And as to "loon," the avian wonder aside, some of the core group of Krautrockers were/are pretty loony. If you're a fan, you know the personal histories of guys like Klaus Dinger and the guys from Faust, so I won't digress here, but it definitely took a certain, post-WWII combination of hot-mess, counter-cultural personality traits to make such extraordinary music, such that it did not mimic at all the "rock" that was then popular in the West (UK and USA), but bore a personality so distinctly German, for better and for worse, and all great in the end. They were mavericks all. "Muscle and viscera," as I noted on the air.

So last night's Kraut-Out v.2 was fun; oddly I think a huge mistake I made was veering TOO far away from Germany. I wanted to showcase some artists from Italy and France, and I think I just went 1-2 tracks too deep into it. ...That said, I very much enjoyed sharing selections from Eskaton and especially Jacula. ...There was appreciation of some sort for nearly every artist I played, which is great! The best information I can give on each is already there, in the playlist, most-recent releases, etc., so rather than bust out a link for every single item, I'm going to trust that you all have the ability to do a Discogs search, and to hunt these labels down; there are many great labels keeping this music alive and available, some with deluxe vinyl reissues, others with remastered CDs x bonus material, etc. So, apologies for being "lazy," but I'm never quite sure how many people actually read these posts anyway, so rather than write out and hyperlink 80% of the artist names, I leave it to thee. ... Keep your hubby happy, keep your hubby happy, mit Krautenspiel!

You may access the audio archive and playlist by clicking the link in the paragraph above, OR by simply clicking on the image above, from perhaps the finest German science-fiction film EVER, Rainer Werner Fassbinder's World on a Wire, recently restiored on double DVD by The Criterion Collection.

In other matters. Prison Tatt Records fans can catch us this weekend at the Martyrdoom Festival, two days (Sat. & Sun.) at Saint Vitus Bar in Greenpoint, Brooklyn, with vendors during the day (many of the great labels/records/tapes played regularly on MCoQ will be there), and live bands at night. ... All Prison Tatt label titles and distro items will be available, discounted from their Web-posted prices. ...The BRAND NEW one-sided LP by Nuit Noire, A Beautiful Belief, arrived just in time, so copies will be available for the first time.

Hope to meet you all; see you there!

Monday, June 23, 2014


Though incorporated into the My Castle of Quiet horrorcast™, somewhat regularly, this week, for the first time since 2011, we'll be presenting a full three hours of mostly 70s (& some 80s) Krautrock, and other European progressive rock. metal, no modern "noise" etc., though a great deal of what happens weekly on the radio show can be easily, stlistically traced back to this hyper-creative period in European music, stretching far beyond the scope of "rock," in its myriad, seemingly endless permutations.

Kraut-Out #1, from July 2011.

We hope you'll join us, for seldom-heard tracks, and sundry mind excursions.
Tuesday night / Weds. a.m.

I blow the dust off my purple bellbottoms and red-velvet waistcoat, at 12 mitternacht.
Krautrock begins alomst immediately.
WMFU 90.1FM (Hudson Valley)
in Rockland County @ 91.9FM LIVE on the Web.

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

I'll carry the pessimism torch when you're gone

As listener blee put it, last night's horrorcast™ was "...different, in a positive way." I'm traversing in some lighter stuff, I suppose, though music that's not obviously hard and heavy can also absolutely have gravitas, convey leaden emotion, especially in the case of something like the much-lauded-by-Castleheads Guilty Feelings / Nest CD, or the classic Mayo Thompson track we heard, "Worried Worried" from 1970, which is one of those songs on my eternal, internal HD.

I really love what I do at WFMU, as much as it "ain't much" in terms of a more far-reaching popularity. I've always had this "dream" that black metal, and the other, much-more-difficult-than-average sounds we convey, could somehow, in the right context and at the right time, be as popular with listeners as any of the bigger shows on WFMU. But I'm a dreamer, and it just goes to show that I'm stupidly of an ironclad belief that the show I do could ring true with larger masses of people if they only listened, gave it a chance.

People, as a group at least, tend toward things that are put right in front of them and are "easy" to like, in radio terms that means talk, call-in programs, pop-rock music and the like—and to certain degrees and in certain cases I really enjoy those things too—but I've had this vision from the outset of My Castle of Quiet that more "challenging" or "difficult" programming could be embraced more widely, if listeners only heard it, or saw it, in the way that I do. Dreamer, like I said. ...

Lots of playlist-comment appreciation for all sorts of things last night; the above-mentioned Guilty Feelings and Thompson tracks, as well as - the new Eyehategod s/t CD; some more-recent Ulver (i.e., not black metal); the new Dama/Libra on Northern Spy; the trailer audio for Bug, one of my favorite films of the new millennium; a great, recent cassette by Croatia's Averzija (!); and some killer, atmospheric bm from Slovakia by Korium.

Anyone else zoom through Season 1 of True Detective recently, as I did? Often, HBO can be counted on to make quality television, and True Detective is deeply compelling and resonant, less for its serial-murder-mystery milieu, than for its stunning performances by M. McConaughey and "our brother in cannabis" Woody Harrelson, who always turns in a great performance. Soul-crushing, gut-wrenching, hyper-realistic roles from both actors, for sure. Some great music is featured on the series as well, curated / chosen by T-Bone Burnett; the opening, credit-sequence song by Handsome Family, and the many well-chosen songs used within episodes, and as credit-outro themes. 

Thanks as always to Caslteheads, both the devoted and the new converts, for keeping me company in the wee, wee hours, and for your enthusiasm and commentary.

Upcoming special programs include next week's "Kraut-Out #2," a long time coming, another three-hour adventure in some carefully chosen European progressive rock and Krautrock, all 70s, all the time. Link to stream Kraut-Out #1, from July 2011.

Also coming, for my birthday horrorcast on our August 5/6 show, a live set from NYC's Privilege, and a preview / sampling of some new projects by our friend J. Slusher. ...Hopefully, some kind lady also "makes it like my birthday" ... just putting that out there. A great time will nonetheless be had by all. 

Click above, on the curious, often-nude amateur sleuth played by Edwige Fenech, to reach our playlist and audio archive for last night.

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Massaging my hate to sleep.

So, a relatively "quiet" night, on the playlist, but I never sweat those. People are out there, listening and feeling the music. ...In part, I gauge things by my own personal quality standard, though interacting with listeners via WFMU's accuplaylist in real time during the show is definitely a lot of fun for me. Plus, more comments (our post title here today, for example) trialed in after, as they so often do, due to our horrorcast™'s late hour, or early hour, for some.

Praise early on for the outstanding track by Puerto Rico's Cornucopia, and yes, it's true I've never heard a "bad" or "uninteresting" Cornucopia track—their considerable output has been generally outstanding, and that Ultima album is perhaps my favorite release on my buddy Bob Bellerue's Anarchymoon Recordings label. I just come back to that record again and again. But I'm predisposed, also, toward any LP where a "side" = "song" layout has been employed. ...The Ultima track may have also helped to make it a quiet night; a hovering, a 19-min., mind-daubing electronic piece will either put some people to sleep, or send the less hearty onward to more pop pastures.

CORNUCOPIA ON BANDCAMP - lots of free downloads, and others are "name your price"

Also, one CD-R that's never failed to get a positive reaction from Castleheads—and somewhat to my surprise, as we so rarely if ever play acoustic, melodious music—is the Nest CDr by Gulity Feelings. Castleheads, like me, must just really love this album—it's this kind of sound done very right, and the songs are all executed with sincerity and passion, and the lyrics are good and the melodies are like mind-glue; plus it's generally dreary and bittersweet, so ultimately Guilty Feelings DOES very much fit the mood of MCoQ.

This record has yet to make its full impact on the music world, and thus far Guilty Feelings, perhaps refreshingly, have no Internet presence whatsoever that I could detect.

Also, for my own, a high, high point of last night's show was the lengthy cassette track from Void Prayer (out now on The Throat)—emotionally stirring, with a wild build, and representative of the striking new direction of Netherlands black metal in general.

Thanks for listening this week! Click on the abomination depicted above, to reach our horrorcast playlist, audio archive and listener comments. ...I'm off to continue the drawn-out process of dying alone....oh, also, wanted to add that I really enjoyed this Norwegian period piece about a young girl on the run from barbarians ...

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Hereness accomplished.

To reach the archive and playlist of last night's horrorcast™, click on the still above, from Alien IV: Resurrection (1997, ), featuring the gloppy spawn of Ripley and the Queen Alien, and a terrified synthetic, Call, played by Winona Ryder.

Listeners loved the track by Cave Ritual, and well they should, the band being one of the most exciting BM bands to emerge from The Netherlands in recent years. Cave Ritual @ Discogs | CR @ metal archives

Also noted, the Witchbeam tape side from the new split cs with Mr. Matthews (both of Telecult Powers fame) on Hausu Mountain, a label that's been celebrating / releasing some of my favorite artists.

Not much more to add at this juncture, a bit premature but we are hoping for a live visit from Nine of Swords, in July. Thanks for listening!

Saturday, May 31, 2014

STRIP NUDE FOR YOUR KILLER ... pre-title sequence and main titles

While not the greatest film by many a mile; many better Giallo-genre films were made at this time, the very height of the Italian sex-thriller cinema machine (1975.) Still, something inspired me to capture and share with you this odd, pre-title sequence, and the main-title street scenes, with music about as groovy as Giallo scores ever get (music by Berto Pisano.) ...No one was looking to outdo The Bird With the Crystal Plumage or anything, but the sense one gets form most Giallos is that there was a "the weirder, the better" standard, both in scripts and visuals. So enjoy! Though not depicted here, Strip Nude... stars the lovely and alluring Edwige Fenech.

...Known in Italy as Nude per l'assassino, director Andrea Bianchi also directed, and is perhaps most notable for creating the exceptionally bizarre Burial Ground (also scored by Pisano), a zombie drama that's as much laughable as it is fascinating—overall poor makeup and effects, but with such oddly fascinating scenarios as to rival the most clunky of Jean Rollin films. Yes, Burial Ground is the one where the odd-sized man child (who kind of looks like a young Mark E. Smith, to be completely frank) is still nursing his mother as an adult, and well, towards the end, the film becomes one giant, pro-weaning PSA, as the little man/boy becomes zombified, and in her attempts to soothe his panic, Mom gets her own breast quite brutally gnawed off! Clearly, as with the opening scene here, this director had some gruesome visions to share on the mother / child dynamic. ...


Wednesday, May 28, 2014

This show really is exceptional. I missed the first Grasshopper live set because I was setting rat traps under my house. Need more blood. Praise Satan for the archives.

Yes, a self-aggrandizing headline here, plucked from our playlist. ...I only do so when I feel the show has been truly up to and exceeding my own personal standard for the weekly broadcast, and last night's show just nailed it on all fronts—if I say so myself—definitely one of the top ten My Castle of Quiet shows, ever. A staggeringly great live guest, choice selections woven around their performances, and a lively playlist with a more-than-amusing discourse between us and our listeners. So THANKS!

Firstly, listeners were rug-pulled by Grasshopper's rendition of our weekly theme, Fabio Frizzi's "Zombie Theme," aka "Zombie Flesh Eaters," a classy, haunting rendition that might just have me switching off with the original from week to week, especially seeing as this version is an exclusive, as well as a brotherly representation of the longstanding relationship between Grasshopper and MCoQ. ...

This was followed by two outstanding live sets from Ghop, and as I said later in the "interview" portion of the show (in itself, wildly irreverent—thanks Josh, Jesse and Co.!) - if you'd asked me in 2009-10 if Grasshopper could possibly sound any more haunting / evil, it's likely that I would have said, "Hmm no, I don't think so," of course completely underestimating their capacity for true darkness in sound, evidenced by these sets.

More praise on the playlist for: Niedergang (bandcamp) | a track from Venowl's "Morton Feldman" session - truly outstanding! | Cave Ritual's s/t cassette from 2012; a great band, every release a raucous mess of heavy, Nederlandischer raw bm.

Listener Mike from MPLS said: 

I've only heard about a dozen of your shows, but this one is exceptional!

And this! Well, it's very heartening; I don't get choked up by too many playlist comments, but honest praise like this is about as good as it gets, especially when I consider that I'm doing a show the contents of which are most definitely not for everyone. Listener Mike sensed that I was "on a roll," and added some righteous Witches' Sauce to those thanks, everyone, again. ...For every Castle horrorcast™I'm approaching, reaching for this standard of excellence, in that particular arena of "doing what I do," so it's gratifying even more so when people take notice.

The better the program, the less need be said about it perhaps, so I'll conclude by saying that I got home and re-watched most of Martyrs, at the suggestion of several listener / friends, and liked it a great deal more the second time. Exceptionally, unwaveringly brutal, but with a purpose, and a great story that precedes / surrounds the worst of the captivity and torture scenes depicted in the film.

I like to use show-appropriate, compelling original photography on our playlist when I can (not that this is an open invitation, but oh hell, why not?! go for it), and this week's playlist image from Chromaa more than fit the bill. Click on the damaged, discarded Dracula PEZ dispenser to reach the archived audio, playlist and comments for last night's My Castle of Quiet.